Cancer is not Curable

It was the one fateful day of our life, when we learned our mother got diagnosed with Cancer. The life changed then after. "Cancer" how dangerous is the word, which can be the sun sign of lots of people in this world. But for the few and unlucky it is the dangerous and critical illness.

Out of this world I loved my mom the most. She is with God now. But i will never refer her in the past tense, 'cause I am sure she is going to be with me at every step i take in present or future. The day we came to know about her deadly diseases, we all were shocked. It was the burden I knew I would not be able to handle, but I had to carry it with the painful smile on my face. I never let my mom knew that how much pain I was going through (along with her) only because I wanted her to be happy.

It was the peak of my career and I wanted to rule the world, wanted to show my abilities and capabilities to all. I chose to stay at home with her. As everyone in difficulty try to find the solution in Google, even I tried to do so. I researched about the illness and found no solution but just motivational slogans and one out of those was "Cancer is Curable".

How true it is?
It might be curable but the damage it makes emotionally, physically, mentally and financially is not at all curable.
The entire family was shocked and was emotionally shattered. We along with my mother had to take a physical pain to visit the hospitals, see the doctors and go for various irritating lab tests. Look helplessly to her when she under went chemo therapies and to see her in a pain was mental trauma for us.
I wanted to cry out loudly Why this to me? Why this to my lovely and pretty Mom? Why bad things happens to Good People? and lots of other Whys???

My mom, though she was in pain never showed to us cause she thought her kids will get upset, we kids never showed our fear of lossing her cause we thought she might get depressed and father had no other option to see his loved ones in pain. Being financially strong we could afford the medical expenses. The people who can not afford the medical expenses, for them it is one more challenge to overcome along with the deadly disease.

Today, I am so much shattered that I try to run away from the word "Cancer". Whenever I come across this word I feel the pain my mom went through, my family went through. I hate God for this. :(
The word "Cancer" took away all the happiness of my family and destroyed all our dreams, I lost my lovely Mom.
I now firmly believes "Cancer is NOT curable!"

My mom wanted to live for her kids, we wanted to be loved by her. We wanted to enjoy more vacations with her. But we were fighting with the death everyday.
We lost the fight against the death along with the disease.

I Love you Mom !